Bastille Day (aka disappointment)

So I didn't sleep much due to coughing so I didn't wake up in time to leave with Hali and Chris. So I decided I would meet them there. I got ready and left to meet them, but I couldn't get accross the street. There was a maze of fences that trapped me in this weird area by myself. It was kinda lame to be alone, but once the pqrqde started it was okay. Lots of troops, and a band on horses. It was actually pretty cool. The best were the planes that made a french flag in the sky!!!! I enjoyed myself till it started pouring rain. I couldn't help thinking: here I am soaking wet and cold in the rain after being sick, and still being sick without a jacket or umbrella. I hid under a ledge on the side of a nearby building. The rain stopped after a bit so I went bqck out to watch some more parade. Then it started raining again so back to hiding. Finally it went to a drissle so I could leave and navigate my way through the fence maze to the metro. Then to the croissanterie to meet with Hali and Chris for lunch, then home.

Then Hali and I chilled in the room and had epic nap time. We also watched the new Alice In Wonderland and I was plesently surprised. It was pretty good.

Then we got ready and left to watch the fireworks at the Eiffel Tower, but of course it took eveyone forever to leave. Then the metro was packed. Then we were late, then from where we were we could only see half the fireworks because we were behind a building and a tree. THe fireworks were really good though. Then we tried to get to the Eiffel Tower but it was blocked. Then we waited a bit for the metro to clear, then couldn't find an open metro stop, then couldn't find an empty taxi. Finally we found a way on to the metro and made it home. It wasn't that fun.

I came to a conclusion last night. I'm not having as much fun as I expected. I find myself rather unhappy here. I'm really excited to be done with the program, away from people, and class and stress. I want to just be on my own doing the Europe adventure. I don't mean to complain, really I don't! Some of the people here are awsome and I love hanging out with them, and the program helps us out so much. I just feel like I am failing my class, and stressed over school, and feeling wierd here. I dunno I guess I just expected to be happier in Paris.